Good morning to everyone again. It's daylight in the swamp, ha ha!  Hard to concentrate this morning, not much quality sleep last night. Trying to remember what it was like to get a full night's sleep. I think this must have been fantasy or a dream from another life. Oh well, no flashing light's in my head today.(my own private light show). Still no word on when I get to see the Neurologist again, though He said he would see me after I had my sleep deprivation EEG(to get my class 5 drivers licence back). Susan has phoned several times, they say the requisition has gone in and that the system is very busy. I have another DR.'s appointment on April 16, I will ask him at that time if there is other meds I can take. At time's when thing's get a little hectic like this past weekend with the house full etc., my med's don't even come close to doing the job for me.                                                                                                                                                     I can really understand why there are alcoholics in the world(drug abuse). Because booze can lessen the pain so you do not care that it's there, but oh my God is it ever worse the next  day!! So you reach of the bottle again and the cycle continues.  I decided this was not a course for me a long time ago, when I was first hurt.  I noticed that booze did not have the effect of making me feel drunk. Weird huh? On the other hand coffee, in particular caffeine (food with caffeine in it), such as pop made me into drunken sailor. pardon the expression!                                                                                                                                   I am back, it was med time! It's strange how one's life starts revolve around some pills in a bottle. Just sitting here waiting for Susan to wake up, then out to the Hot Tub! Another one of those accessories of the house courtesy of trucking!                                                                                                                             The other love of my life ,or should I say past life driving! Do I miss it? NO!  Do I miss the money I made in the past, the friends, places susan and I have been? Yes.  Especially some of the great friends and places we have been together.                                                                                                                       Now the other sad part of this brain trauma. MY memory. I had a great memory, maybe to good a memory at times. usually did not loose bet ok, let's google it used to drive people insane! Used to pick wrong answer on purpose in games found it was easier to keep friends that way. now I just seem to pick the wrong answer. 30% I might be able to remember something from the past if the right trigger is found that opens my mind, especially more current memory. Like why did I go to the kitchen or what are we going to the city for?                                                                                                                                             So now I find when I go out with friend's I catch myself starring at people do I know you?  And I will ask the person I am with should I know him? Many, many times the answer is yes he drove with us when we were at kindersley or when we were at kindersley he was at rymers or another trucking company! So it's not that I am loosing my mind! Well maybe, that's still to be defined, time to see if susan wants in the hot tub