I am back!  Hectic weekend, such as it was crowds of people and all.  I will never be able to handle a week to the coast this summer.  I was going to go to my nieces wedding.  It just will not happen for me.  This is my decision.  The pain is not worth the results.  One step forward, six steps back.  I hope my decision does not disappoint to many people, but I have to live in my mind.  Anyways enough said on that..
  A lot to talk about today and this week, a lot to catch up on!!!!!  You must have heard about several professional athletes that have committed suicide recently?  All purposely have avoided damaging their brains.  As they had donated them for research for post traumatic concussions!!!!!!!
  I had a conversation with one of my daughters this weekend.  Did you know the brain does not multi- task!  Seriously!  It has now been proven that the brain is only capable of doing one thing at a time...  I repeat "one" thing at a time!!  Yes I was very sceptical too.  It does these things very fast., and switches sides and alternates. but still does them one at a time.When we think we are doing two things at a time such as talking and walking for example it is a memory function that is cutting in that is doing the walking and allowing us to continue with new thought processes to continue our conversation.  So when I am having trouble vacuuming (multitasking as I put it) my brain is having trouble trying to find new travel routes from my memory to get the process done.  Made sense to me.  That is why my headaches get worse as I take on more activities or try and have more stimulus in my day to day life..   Finally something I can wrap my head around and understand.  Thank-you Nicole!!!
  Like I said I have a lot to talk about.  Some where I was reading or saw, not sure which now.  After a concussion one should avoid shock/trauma to the brain.  This must be strictly adhered to until all post traumatic concussion like symptoms are gone.  So what does W.C.B. do to me?  They send me to a place called CBI.  I thought this stood for Canadian brain institute, Wrong!  I was to later learn it stood for Canadian Back Institute?????   What does a brain injury have to do with a back institute, you might ask?  We are not totally sure but when I asks the Neurologist and my Dr. they were not sure but advised me to go as compensation may cut my benefits if I did not go.  Besides it might be nice to get to be paid to go work out at the gym.  While at CBI they iniated a program of me rapidly shaking my head yes and then rapidly shaking my head no!!!...... when I complained of this and several other mind and reading exercises that were making my headaches worse they threatened me with a cab to the hospital.  which I had already been down that road before.  there is nothing they can do for a headache for concussion, other than rest.  I am already on enough meds.  When my Md. returned from vacation, he told me to stop the head shacking exercise and any exercise mental or physical that was making my headaches worse, CBI did not seem to pleased with my attitude.  However my headache level lowered, which in turn I believe allowed my medication to partially work.  I also believe that some of the trauma I experienced at CBI is partially responsible for my prolonged recovery.
  This is due to lack of understanding of concussions in the medical field as a whole.  This goes right back to WCB for the lets hurry up and get workers back to work no mater what the costs.  Now possibly my brain may have permanent damage as is showing up in athletes donated brains.  The quality of one's life, not even being able to travel without pain, to enjoy a family wedding,   Like where does this end.
  Do not feel sorry for me I am not suicidal!!!  Just frustrated and pissed off at the system.......  lets fix it!!!  As you can tell by God it must be his medication time and it is...  So I am of for med's and some hot-tub time and some planing for Building the Simple life